Have you ever just felt off...

     I was pretty sick last week. That is why I didn't write which by the way I totally missed. I missed not writing everything down....well I am back. 

    Have you ever just felt off like something was wrong but you couldn't just quite put your finger on it. I am feeling that way. I am starting to have a really hard time again. I really feel like a part of me is missing. I have tried to push it out of my head. I have tried to ignore it. I did that before and it didn't work. Why do I keep doing it to myself? It is like I want to hurt myself over and over not physically but defiantly mentally. I just thought I was doing better but I am really second guessing that.

    I seen a picture yesterday that took me back. It felt like I was kicked in the gut. It was like my heart was breaking all over. Why is it with relationships you feel you can't do anything right? I wished there was a way I could go back and take stuff back. I wished there was away I could make things better. 

I think the reason I am off is because a part of me is missing?