Some stuff going on,

    Hello all, it has been a really long time since I had a blog but there is so much going on in my life. I figured it might be good for me to have a blog again. Right now I have my momma and her boyfriend living with me. They moved down from Illinois. I love it that she is here. I love the fact that I have her here to hug. Her and my dad were together for a really long time and he passed away several years ago. I miss him terribly. I really took that relationship for granted. I felt like he was always going to be there and he isn't now. Word to the wise: DO NOT TAKE FAMILY FOR GRANTED. One day they won't be here to help you along the way. 

    Two of my oldest boys have moved out. I am so very proud of my middle child Hunter. He is still doing school and working at Dollywood. He loves the job. I know that it is hard on him. He is trying his best to do it all and complete high school. My oldest has been with his high school sweetheart and moved in together.

     I became a Gigi in January of 2020. I never knew that type of love. Waiting for him to be born, waiting to hold him, waiting to love on him, and just waiting to make those memories. I would go over almost every day after work to see him. I didn't feel too welcome though. Luke's mom made me feel like I was not a good enough grandma or anything for that fact. Anytime I was around I she always found and excuse for her to take him from me. I cried many tears when I would leave cause I felt like she didn't want me there or even in the picture. I raised Robert into a great man, why would she think I would hurt Luke? I finally got over it and asked for a sit down with them both with my husband. They didn't want to talk they didn't want to do anything and when I tried to explain it made me feel like I was just imagining things. That hurt. That hurt to the core. I have never felt the pain that I did that day. I never felt my heart literally break. I have cried so many tears since that day. I wished I could see and hold him and let him know that he is loved by me in and his grandpappy. One day I pray that I will get that time with him.

    I homeschool my middle and youngest child. I wished I had done that for all of my children. I have more time with them. I feel like I have more control over what they learn and help them more about stuff they don't understand. I have that one-on-one time. This year my middle one is a Junior and the youngest he is an 8th grade. My youngest is having a really hard time with not having friends. I try to understand that but I am a home body and I hardly get to see my friends. 

    With the COVID pandemic it has really hit us hard in my family. I work from home now. Which my youngest son really enjoys. My husband is an essential employee so he has never stopped working except when he got sick and was in the hospital. Not COVID related but he was in there for about a week.

    I will update more later.