Have you Ever....

    Have you ever just have a day, a day to where you wished that it didn't start or end the way that it did. That has been my day. My day has been one thing after another of stuff going on. I wished that I could do more for people. I wished I could do more for my family. I wished I could take my pain away. I wished I could take my families pain away. Is there ever a moment in your life to where you wished you were better off? That is where I am in my life. I wished that I owned my own house. I wished I had my own land. I am just having a day. I know I am allowed to have a mental day as long as I don't make it longer than a day because that day turns in to days and those days turns into months. I can't do that. I have my husband and my boys to think about (Even though one isn't speaking to me). I don't even want to have a day at this point. There is a breaking point there is a mental breaking point to where things just can't keep happening in a bad way. I have to think positive right. There is that light at the end of the tunnel eventually right? Today is the day to where I say FUCK IT. This is the day where I just want to hide and make the pain go away. This is the day to where I say, where are you?  Today is the day! I don't look back. 

    

    Tomorrow will be a better day. More laughter, more smiles, more hugs, just more. Tomorrow is the day I will make those goals. Tomorrow is the day I wake up and just be better. I know today was a bad day but I won't let it take over. I will have that fun time. I will have that moment in life tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow is my future. Tomorrow is.....

    There are moments in life to where I wished I could go back to. Those moments are stuff and things that I did I regret. I try my best to be a good person, good friend, good mother, good daughter, good sister, good aunt, and a good christian. I know some people might judge me differently and to be totally honest I don't care. I don't care what you or the next person thinks. I am me.